February 2012
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“Away from me, all you who do evil, for the LORD has heard my weeping. The LORD...”
– Psalms 6:8-10
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My heart is breaking inside my chest deteriorating with each passing breath.
My pain begins to suffocate me, my spirit fades from my body.
I have nothing left.
I suffer every single day and every single night I pray, just make everything OK.
Sometimes I want to cry, sometimes I want to die.
I just want to feel you loving me, I want to see what you see.
I want to take a razor to my pain...
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“Look to my right and see; no one is concerned for me. I have no refuge; no one...”
– Psalm 142:4
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I'm about to be sick...
someone just texted me and asked me why my picture was on a porn site? I replied Um, excuse me? Apparently some sick fuck took one of my pictures from facebook or here or somewhere and put it on some porn site as the default for a video saying i love to give head and when he tried looking at the video it wouldn’t let him. THAT’S BECAUSE NO SUCH THING EXISTS YOU SICK BASTARD! Fuck all...
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I just got done absolutely hysterically crying, it...
screaming-praises asked: I am SO proud of you for sharing your story, girl. <3 You're definitely in my thoughts and prayers. <3
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laying it all on the table...
this is the realist and most raw you will EVER see me, i figure that if people can post about how they cut themselves, want to kill themselves and talk about their depression. I can talk about this, the ONLY reason i’m doing this is in the hopes that my mess will become someone else’s miracle. I cannot be the only one who feels like this and i don’t appreciate random people...
in the sincerest way i know how, i'd like to...
maybe instead of judging me, you should pray for me. Because i don’t like me very much right now either. But that is my response to any haters right now.
Watching P.H.A.T. Girlz and feeling better about...
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“Yet, so far from laboring to know the forbidden tree of worldly pleasures and...”
– Johann Arndt
Anonymous asked: Not all women in porn have been molested or have daddy issues. Not all women who like to suck dick have issues. Some women show their tits because they want to. And some women do porn and cam work because it's empowering.
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unpopular opinion: Christian blogs...
i will probably get the most hell for this one, but here goes nothing. I am so dumbstruck by the Christian blogs that are the most popular… the kind that gets a bagillion reblogs and comments and what not. In a way, it bothers me. Because… sometimes i feel like they get wayyy too ‘preachy’ and a little judgmental. I know we’re all guilty of this, but it’s like...
myloverashleigh asked: Ahaha.. You're so cool. NOT TROLLING, you really are awesome! <3
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My Drunk Kitchen on CBS news? I have now seen it... →
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These mood swings are utterly excruciating... i...
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"Do not be anxious about anything, but in...
myloverashleigh asked: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! <3 AGH! You make me very happy, dear.
Anonymous asked: How old are you? (:
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“There’s only artificial light here, my flaws hide well here. I used to be afraid...”
– in the dark
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in the dark.
my mood lately has been dipping a lot, i feel like crying my eyes out. I feel so utterly worthless and i’m struggling with day-to-day living. I’m just so mad at myself, for not taking care of myself like i should. I’m mad that i can be SO smart and bright and insightful, yet i walk into a room and forget why i’m there and do this multiple times. I’ll walk out of the...
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“Treason, a pound of flesh is the debt. Leaving a crippled man, I’ll give...”
– my God
Anonymous asked: It sounds like you've been having alot of shit recently. Forgive me if I'm wrong. I just wanted to remind you that you are amazing and beautiful.
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Dear Bullies,
Apparently you didn’t get the memo…but bullies are supposed to become extinct after high school…I’m really sorry to be the one to have to tell you. I’m sure there is a support group you can join that can help you through this very tough time! The only one i know about is D.U. (dumbasses united). It’s really important to surround yourself with like-minded ignorant hateful people like yourself. I...
NOTHING. I repeat, NOTHING.
Pisses me off more than bullying, in ANY way shape or form. The absolute quickest way to turn me into your worst nightmare. I think and say things so cruel i literally have to go pray and repent. I pray for you, not because i want to. But because it’s what God tells us to do. I could spit fire i am so angry right now.
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“Do everything in love.”
– 1 Corinthians 16:14
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i think...
that it’s super easy to point out other people’s flaws and tell them what it is they should be doing differently and nearly impossible to take a look in the mirror and use that same kind of judgement to shine light on what it is in our lives we need to fix. I am so guilty of this, i’ve been bullied for as long as i can remember for being fat and ugly, i’ve always been the...
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the ballad of love and hate...
I hate that moment where the safety bubble you’ve created for yourself pops and you’re suddenly in reality and forced to deal with it. I’m conflicted and i don’t know how to feel… i want to be over the mess you made and be the bigger person who isn’t bitter and who wishes you well. But i simply don’t. I want to be over it so bad, i don’t know how to...
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Madea
Dr. Phil: do you feel like you always have to 'get even'?
Madea: hell yeah.
Dr. Phil: why do you always have to get even? Why can't you just let it roll off like water on a ducks back?
Madea: cuz' i ain't no damn duck!
Dr. Phil: you don't have to attack people all of the time!
Madea: if somebody do something to you, you supposed to do something to you. That's what the bible said, the bible said in 2nd duderonimo, the book of jerico. Dat the eye for the tooth and tooth for the people and that everybody who got the eye you punch em' in it.
Dr. Phil: what?!
Madea: I can tell you don't read the bible, so the bible say turn the other cheek. So somebody hit that cheek you turn the other cheek. Now you only got two cheeks, how many cheeks you supposed let them hit before you whoop they ass?
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“I know that when you look at me, there’s so much that you just don’t...”
– run to you
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Men.
so on my tumblr i follow some lovely ladies who from time to time post wedding things and ‘Dear Future Husand’ posts and while i’m not as spirited about getting married as they are. That coupled with so many of my friends either being already married with a kid or two or just married or engaged or in a serious relationship they could see leading to such things, it does make me...
i kind of feel like crying.
and it’s nice to be reassured that it’s okay to cry, it’s okay to hurt and i don’t have to always be super strong and tough. Sometimes i can just let myself be sad.
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unpopular opinion time.
Listen, whether this be tumblr or facebook or twitter or whatever… if it’s MY site then what makes you think you have a right to give me crap for stating my personal opinion? I’m not saying my opinion is the only one or the right one, i’m just simply stating MY opinion. So why do you feel the need to antagonize me on it? I’m so annoyed by people who think that their...
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“artists - musicians, painters, writers, poets, always seem to have had the most...”
– Billy Joel
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father God,
i am the farthest from perfect, i am a loser… my entire life i’ve been tormented, deemed not worthy of exsistence. I have been to hell and back, i have suffered unspeakable pain. I’ve questioned my worth more times than i can remember… i have wished at times to just simply fade away. I’ve been hurt, i have hurt, i am nothing but a bleeding heart. I am nothing special....
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God doesn't love hypocrites...
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. - Romans 8:37-39
If i speak of nothing else, i will speak of the love...
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“See, the problem is that God gives men a brain and a penis, and only enough...”
– Robin Williams
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Anonymous asked: God doesn't love hypocrites. Practice what you preach. :]