i am the farthest from perfect, i am a loser… my entire life i’ve been tormented, deemed not worthy of exsistence. I have been to hell and back, i have suffered unspeakable pain. I’ve questioned my worth more times than i can remember… i have wished at times to just simply fade away. I’ve been hurt, i have hurt, i am nothing but a bleeding heart. I am nothing special. But through you God, through you I AM MADE WHOLE. Through you I AM ALIVE. Through you, I AM OK. You’ve called this outcast to speak of your love, you never cease to remind me. That this is not about me, this is YOU. I am NOT worthy of this blessing, this churning inside my spirit to help people. “Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.”- 1 John 4:4

God i praise you, i am not worthy of what you’ve called me to do. Thank you God for seeing in me, what i could never see in myself. I am a child of God and with him i can do anything. All the glory, honor and praise be to you. I am nothing without you. Thank you for loving me, when i couldn’t love myself.

“Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you,  casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.” - 1 Peter 5:6-7 

I am literally crying and snotting over here. I’ve just overwhelmed by his grace and i needed to share it, the realization, the moment when you are able to even begin to understand how loved you are… is a beautiful moment and i wanted to share it with you. I hope this wasn’t too much of a mess. My spirit is at peace. I don’t know you, but i love you. I can’t wait to see what God has in store for me, God i surrender myself to you. I am merely a vessel… just use me to help as many people as possible. I am the fisherman of the twentieth century, i am the least of these and i am worthy of the love of God, this is precious and beautiful. I praise you God, i praise you. Thank you.