that it’s super easy to point out other people’s flaws and tell them what it is they should be doing differently and nearly impossible to take a look in the mirror and use that same kind of judgement to shine light on what it is in our lives we need to fix. I am so guilty of this, i’ve been bullied for as long as i can remember for being fat and ugly, i’ve always been the outcast, the outsider. Ive been emotionally abused, emotionally raped, and had my innocence shattered. It’s caused me to at times have a distorted view on things… my entire life i was weak and helpless. I was a victim and one day i woke up and decided i wasn’t going to take it anymore. So now sometimes i feel like i overcompensate for the helplessness i felt for so long with this new found- sass, sarcasm and strength. Sometimes i allow myself to get trapped inside the darkness of my past, and allow it to control me. Instead of looking to God for help and for answers, i am so flawed as a person. I realize this, i see this and i give it to God. I know that my spunk, strength, sass and sarcasm are the things that set me apart from most. But i cannot allow that to be all that i am known for. I want to be known for helping people and being a loving and caring human being. Not for continuously ranting and raving about something that’s got my panties in a twist. I don’t need to have an opinion about everything. Sometimes i feel myself slipping away from what i should be doing and getting too comfortable in my old habits which is being cripplingly negative. I don’t want to spread any negativity, it’s the exact opposite of the message i want to send. I’m glad to have a God who points out my flaws to me in a loving and caring way. He’s shown me that we all have our downfalls…that a sin is a sin. That we all have our demons that we need to control. We all have things we need to work on and instead of spewing judgement or bitterness or resentment that IS NOT truly about the subject i’m ranting about but more like hidden pain i can’t find another way to deal with. I’m going to spread love. Because despite your imperfections, you’re still loved and perfect to God. “Because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world”. You’re beautifully broken, Glory shows up, exposes us. I’m naked here, forsaken here. By the dark-by the dark. Damn the dark.  Father God, i pray for light and love. I ask that you help us to work through the things that make us weak. Keep us from giving in to our darkness, catch us from falling on our downfalls and may we look to you with every step. In your holy name. Amen.