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beauty challenge.
I just had a heart to heart with some who told me i was just being far too hard on myself and it’s unhealthy and untrue and bizarre that i get so down on myself out of no where. So i decided i needed to do a self esteem intervention someone taught me… i have to look in the mirror repeat the words ‘i am beautiful’ until i feel better and start to see things about myself i like. The trick is to show us the image we’re carrying around the distorted one, is in fact distorted, and we don’t look as ugly as we think. Upon doing this for a few minutes i noticed a couple of things about myself i liked.
Those things are; My Freckles, eyes and lips.
- I like the fact i have freckles that sweep across my cheeks and nose.
- I like the fact i have football shaped bright-green-blue eyes that change colors and have a multitude of colors mixed in.
- I like the fact i have big full lips. (The kind people pay good money for.)
Do i feel pretty? No.
Will i someday? Yes.
I’m learning to see what is actually in the mirror, i’m constantly complimented on my looks, i’ve been told i could do print work if i wanted… yet just like the rest of the world sometimes i get upset because i’m not a size 2 blonde with a perfect tan and BIG blue eyes. I am the QUEEN of embracing yourself and loving yourself for WHO YOU ARE. Not letting the world define what is pretty and what is not.
I’m just searching for peace, confidence and comfort in my own skin. and i will find it. And maybe along the way some of you can do that with me too.
I love you guys, i just wanted to apologize for my mini melt down. I used to get called fat and ugly on a daily basis nearly all of my childhood to adolescence and from adolscene into adulthood, the fat chick with huge boobs.
So i’m currently trying to shake off what the world has to say and just listen to God and my heart and figure out who i am through him. Which is beautiful.
<3
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Things to do instead of sleep;
- listen to music
- put on a fake mustache
- take pictures of yourself
- be incredibly sexy
- make everyone jealous
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to-do list.
Every time i think something negative about myself or hear someone else’s false and invalidating opinion of me. I will just think this gif in my head and i will be happy, and it will make self esteem appear. I’m not kidding, try it.
Bitch, i’m flawless.
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apparently.
as long as you’re skinny you can be a ‘model’, it makes me so mad to see these girls who have nothing going on for them personality wise OR looks wise other than being ‘skinny’ and having these ‘modeling’ pictures. I’m so sick of seeing this, i’m not saying i’m the prettiest girl in the world but i know i’m a lot more attractive then some of these girls i see. If i wasn’t short i swear i would pursue plus sized modeling JUST to show the world that ‘thin’ doesn’t mean pretty. You can have curves and still be sexy. Everyone is beautiful in their own way, SOMETHING about you makes you beautiful. You are a one of a kind creation and you ARE beautiful. I’m just saying i’m sick of the concept that JUST because you’re skinny, you’re ‘pretty’. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and i think that the whole if you’re this and this and this then you’re ‘beautiful’. Just Cuz’ i’m a big girl doesn’t make me ugly and just Cuz’ you’re thin doesn’t make you pretty. True beauty comes from the outside in, not everyone is a brainwashed zombie who thinks that beauty is one denominational. End Rant.
